For 18 months I lived for someone else. Now I'm going to live for myself... maybe he'll be back, maybe he won't. But, life is WAY too short to sit around and mope all the time.
It's hard, I won't deny it! Oh Sweet Jesus!!! Is it EVER HARD! But, I love him, I'll never stop loving him! He needs direction that I can't give him and I wish I could. Part of me hopes that I'll be around when he comes back, but, eh.. I got a trip to plan! I've got classes to start! I have a life to lead!!!

and, gosh darn it!

I'm HOT!