My Past Life!

Don't be scared... just read and be amused!


Chapter 1: The Sun

Your Sun is in Virgo (Tropical zodiac).


As to the activities which are innate or outwardly manifested in your life, coming in the astronomical constellation of Virgo, at times you may have the appearance of being too self-sufficient in your relationships with others.

There is also a likely tendency for you to approach life in a very rational way, resulting in your being considered by others as having a rather materialistic turn of mind. At the same time this also gives you the ability to train or direct the training of the minds of young people.

Long ago, one of your likely past lives was in an ideal nature setting, where you were known for your courage and for your ability to heal. From this distant lifetime you are less likely than most people to be dominated by others and you are usually inclined to carry your share of responsibilities. This experience may have been in South or Central America as a member of one of the native cultures in the Amazon forest of Brazil or the Aztec Indians of Mexico.

Booking my ticket!

I get paid tomorrow and I'm booking my ticket OUT OF HERE!
Off to a little vacation overseas and do a little job hunting then I'm back in Canada to continue saving up then come January I am out of this place!!!
For those of you who are wondering how I'm doing... still dumbfounded over the end of a relationship I was so involved in! But, I'm a creature of habit! I am ready to go... I'm ready to go now!!

I gots hos in different area codes. LOL

No just joking!

But, please, seriously, can those of you visiting my blog, PLEASE stop emailing me for dates? So uncool. So terribly uncool.

Moment of Weakness!

It was just a moment of weakness!
Oh lord, girls, we all go through it. We fail to recognize it at the time, but, when we go through a break up there are those moments when your shields fail and you plumett to lows you never even thought existed!

I'm here to tell you, it's okay. You're not alone!

What else do I have to say? Do not, contact your ex! Let it go, if they believe that they want to be by themselves for a while, let them. Truth of the matter is, you have got to live your life!! So what am I planning on since going through a break up?

1) Taking some new courses with a friend.
2) Getting away more on the weekends
3) Planning my trip to England
4) Planning my big move at the end of the year.

But, I also have to say girls, it's okay if you feel regret! I do too!! I regret:

1) Not being able to snuggle with him under the stars on the dock at his cottage
2) Seeing/playing with his dog
3) Teaching him how to sail.
4) Having him teach me how to stand on a skateboard.
5) Not being able to feel his arm wrapped around me at night and hear him say "Mine"
6) Not being able to have given him the space he needed while he was in the relationship.

Goodbye, I'm going to miss everything about you. You are, without a doubt, the love of my life.

Maybe one day we'll be together, but, that day isn't now. So I need to pick up, pack up and move on. Toronto isn't the city for me anymore, I just can't go anywhere until the end of the year.

Good Things Happen To Good People!

I try to be good. I do my best to listen, think and project happy thoughts. So I am confident that something good will come my way. Yes, lately I've been feeling a little low! My DEEPEST apologies to everyone who has been kind enough to hold my hand, give me hugs, words of wisdom and even self help books!

I have to say, I'm very proud of myself for getting through this.

My heart is aching;
whether you will ever find its way home to me.

Sometimes I feel like I can almost touch you;
I turn and I can almost see your face;
For a moment my heart stops until a cloud moves on to fill the space.

love yas, karmac

I've had an epiphany!

For 18 months I lived for someone else. Now I'm going to live for myself... maybe he'll be back, maybe he won't. But, life is WAY too short to sit around and mope all the time.
It's hard, I won't deny it! Oh Sweet Jesus!!! Is it EVER HARD! But, I love him, I'll never stop loving him! He needs direction that I can't give him and I wish I could. Part of me hopes that I'll be around when he comes back, but, eh.. I got a trip to plan! I've got classes to start! I have a life to lead!!!

and, gosh darn it!

I'm HOT!

Can You Hear the Melody Through the Dissonance?

Wow, so in each of our lives a little rain must fall. Sometimes it's an april shower and sometimes it's a flipping monsoon. Well, kids, I got the granddy of them all!

But, a few days out of it and I have to say I'm feeling better. I can see clearly, and I have no resentment. I loved the past 18 months and there's nothing more to it than that!

I could vent, I could cry, I could do all sorts of evil things in retaliation, but, the truth of the matter is, "Everyone wants to love and be loved." I love my IHCB and I don't think that will ever change. I just never knew that the extent of my love would require me to let go.

Maybe we're not done for.
Maybe there's a tomorrow.
Maybe life's too short to resign to the one you love.
But, then again... maybe it's not.

Whispers in the Hall

After leaving RTH, I've been hearing the whispers in the hall on what a bag Laney Parkinson (name changed to "protect" identity) is. It's so enjoyable to hear about how the staffers like her just as much as I did.

Now as I move on, the stories waft my way from people who used to be associated with her. It is like a gorgeous perfume of vindication!

First step of vindication is my sweet new job, second step was the stories, and third step will be when I can finally remove her face from my mind.

How to Help When You Don't Have Cash!

Today, as I lie ill in bed, I get the need to do something productive.
Yes, I may be dizzy, but, I can't sit around and do nothing anymore!

So I started to sort my clothes and I decided to donate my clothes to an organization for the betterment of all.
I called up The Canadian Diabetes Foundation, as I know people who suffer, I thought it would be a fitting donation. Go to the website, call them up, schedule a pick up and it's done. Click here

Well, if you're short on clothes, try donating your used ink cartridges to the Canadian Diabetes Foundation. Here's the Link with more information.

Maybe you have other things you want to get rid of? Click here for Charity Villages HUGE listing of organizations, programs and what they will accept as donations!!

Your junk IS someone else's treasure!

Excerpt from "An Open Letter to Dr. Phil"

Toronto Star, February 1st.

"And, no offence, but for somebody who launched The Ultimate Weight-Loss Challenge, you seem to have conducted many midnight therapy sessions with glazed goods.

Doughnut: 'Dr. Phil, I can't shake this feeling that you're about to eat me.'

You: 'I am going to eat you, Doughnut. And do you know why? Because you're delicious and you're weak.' "

Oh Dr. Phil, I'm sure you're a great guy, but, there's something so great to read a letter by someone who feels the same way I do.

Open Letter to Motorists in Yorkville

Please, can you look before speeding around corners. In the past month, I've almost gotten run over crossing on a Walk Light A MILLION TIMES.

Just because you drive an obnoxious little Audi that looks like a squished smartie from behind, or your just purchased your first pre-owned BMW SUV, remember right on red is not a right.

If the light says "Walk" it doesn't mean it's target practice.

Using your car's ability to go from 0 to 60 in 3.1 seconds just to catch a yellow light 40 meters away always is a bad idea. I promise, it'll be red by the time you get to the corner, and I'll probably be crossing the street.

On Hoskin Ave, when the light at the student crosswalk is red. You have to stop, even if there's only one person crossing. Slowly rolling through is wrong and so is knicking pedestrians as they walk around your vehicle.

What else?

Stop signs mean stop, even if you're driving a $70,000 vehicle and it's on that side street that runs past Sassafraz.